The Zwitter family

Sorry for not updating this blog for a really long time. I've lost inspiration in blogging. And I don't think I'm as 'entertaining' as I was before anymore :P

So recently, I've been playing Sims 3 again, as I'm in this endless cycle of being addicted to the game and then hating the game because I play too much of it. The cycle has started ever since Sims 1 came out. I will forever be a Sims fan!!

I made this new family called the Zwitter household. Why I even named them Zwitter? I have no idea.

This household initially consisted of 2 girls and 1 boy. The red-haired Amy is the sister of the 'Baldie', the pretty hot guy you see in the pictures whose name I forgot. Blondie (I forgot her name too, so this is her nickname for now) is a childhood friend of Amy's and they now stay together in the same house.

After years of being in love, Baldie popped the question to Blondie and she accepted his proposal! They had a grand wedding and all went well.

Blondie works as a chef at a nearby diner. As for Baldie, because of his neat, handy and nurturing traits, I made him a stay-home dad. He helps to clean the house, and repairs the broken appliances. Together, Baldie and Blondie had a daughter whose name I also forgot. (Goes to show how much thinking I did for their names. And how absolutely horrible my memory is sigh)

While Baldie and Blondie are in marital bliss, Amy was involved in a scandal. She was dating a police vampire. But he never had time for her, and she then met Matthew Hamming, one of the biggest stars in the film industry of Twinbrook, who helms a 4 star status. They quickly fell in love and while still dating the police vampire, she was secretly meeting Matthew by inviting him over. Soon, news broke out that Amy was cheating on her boyfriend and unfortunately now has the 'cheating' reputation. But she didn't care at all, and after dating Matthew, Amy has made a name for herself in the celebrities social circle. She has the star quality trait, making her a natural actress even in her youth. She very quickly obtained a 5 star status! 

Since Blondie was working in a 5-star restaurant as a pastry chef, and Amy was a rising star (and cause I used the motherlode cheat heh), the money they earned together was enough to hire a professional interior designer Phoebe Lee, to give their small suburban home a huge makeover, into a homey mansion.

Unfortunately, after Baldie took a dip in the hot tub, I made him fix a stereo and he died of electrocution :(

Immediately after his death, I found out that Blondie was pregnant with another child of Baldie's :O The Grim Reaper takes one life, and another life forms in Blondie's womb.

Amy had a son out of wedlock with Matthew named Robin, and Blondie's newborn daughter was named Catwoman (Yes, you read it right).

Baldie and Blondie's 1st daughter grew up and became a daycare owner! She initially had 2 kids to take care of, but plus Robin and Catwoman, it was clearly too much for one person to do. So, whoever stayed home before they went to work could help out. When Catwoman grew up into a child, she contributed in the daycare by playing with the babies too. Soon, the daycare got more recognized and grew. More babies were brought in.

Catwoman (still a child) is charismatic and friendly. She does not aim to be a big shot actress, businesswoman or politician. She wants to be popular and swimming in a pool of cash. How? She plans on using her good looks to her advantage, as she wants to marry a rich person and just live in the lap of luxury. She dreams of meeting her own Batman one day (Yes, I ship BatCat). Besides that, Catwoman likes to pull pranks around the house by putting whoopie cushions on the couch and pouring water down from her treehouse.

Robin on the other hand, is sent to Smuggsworth Prep School, one of the finest and most prestigious boarding schools in Twinbrook, where rich people send their children to. Most of them then turn out to be famous doctors, businesspeople and politicians. Robin envisions himself as a businessman one day.

And that is all for now. Till next time ;)

Still indecisive

Medicine or dentistry? Currently what I'm thinking of doing at this point of my research about what I should venture in in the future. I really much prefer the content of medicine more than dentistry. I don't know whether I'd like to spend almost all of my studying life learning about out teeth and our mouths. I really am not sure. Now I'm wondering, then I'm going to have a much harder time studying medicine because there's so much more to learn. And for me, being a super apprehensive person... ALL THESE DOUBTS AND WORRIES ARE KILLING ME.

Maybe I should've just done mass comm. You know, work in a PA department, meet and socialize with people, or be a wedding planner.

I DON'T FREAKING KNOW I'm so frustrated and lost right now T_T Praying that God will help me with this decision...

At crossroads

I don't know what to do with my life. I really don't.

And I have to make a decision very soon.

Indecision. Noun, \ˌin-di-ˈsi-zhən\ A wavering between two or more possible courses of action.

I feel tired thinking and worrying about what I'm going to do in life. I know I'm not the only one. Every career has its pros and cons. And sometimes, interests and passions are put on the back burner as they are trumped by materialistic, physical factors e.g. money or academic qualifications. People tell me that I can change my job if I don't like what I'm doing. I wish I could do that. I applaud those who could and did. I really do, then I could just go into one of the courses and if I don't like it I just pack my stuff and go for the next one. They say it like it's so easy to do it.

I don't want to waste money. I don't come from a rich family, and to provide the financial means for my studies, my parents have to forego and sacrifice opportunities plus their time and effort by working extra hard. I don't want to make it any more troublesome for them than it already is. I'm blessed and thankful to have parents who are not forcing me to do things I don't want to do. Yes, they occasionally drop hints here and there, but they are allowing me to pursue my dream. I have friends whose parents aren't supportive at all of what they really desire to do in life and craft their own path for him. My parents may not be very enthusiastic, but at least they're not complaining heh. But the thing is, I don't know what my dream is.

Medicine. Dentistry. Pharmacy. Biomedical science. Those are the things that have been circling in my brain, more often that not for the past month. What do I want to do? Do I really want to look at people's teeth and mouth all day? Do I really want to stay in a lab the whole day with bacteria or the periodic table as my best friends? Honest answer: No. Answer with some more thinking and compromises: Yes. In one way or another, whatever we do in our daily lives require compromise. You can't escape it. And I'm thinking, if I compromise with myself and let go of my inhibitions, maybe I might grow to enjoy it. Scale new heights. Who knows.
I can rule out everything that is Maths-heavy because no way am I doing Maths my whole life. NO WAY. I would despise a life like that and just be digging my own grave. Besides, I'm no good in Maths. To obtain results I was okay with, I had to study like crazy. I had to do Maths every single day. I tried that, and I didn't like it at all. Maths, to me, is like kryptonite to Superman. Ha, I may be exaggerating but that's how I feel!

Most of the time, I'm not sure what I want... is what I really want, if you get what I mean. Is my heart just going with the flow as my brain is? Sometimes I think I'm on auto-pilot. I don't know. I think it's what I want. But is it? It's like there's another layer of what I'm thinking which reveals what I really really want. Mindception.

I don't see me doing any other stuff as a career in my life. I've been joining clubs and societies (that I'm interested in) and trying to get posts and do things that might add pages to my application to make them it look more appealing. I've been doing that since forever. I also do that in primary and secondary school. Trying my best. Participating in activities. Being involved. It's automatic. Sometimes I think I do it on auto-pilot, y'know.

Yes, art and music have a dear place in my heart in a way of its own. But it's not something I'd consider as a career. I hated drawing and colouring. I hated doing music theory during my piano lessons. That was a red light signal that art or music isn't something I'd like to do my whole life. As a hobby, sure... playing instruments, listening to music and making artsy fanart are my hobbies.

But with science or technology, it's different. I enjoyed learning about science. I find it fascinating. Of course it can get boring sometimes I have to admit, but they have their moments. Especially Biology omg, it's intriguing. I am amazed at how intricate and meticulous our God is when it comes to creation. How He can think of ways to make stuff like that... mind-blowing sometimes. Biology has to be my favourite subject, although it is not the subject I'm doing best in. In fact, among the 3 sciences, Biology was always my weakness. And if you know me, I love technology. I proclaim myself as a techno geek

Another thing I have to worry about is my horrible, horrible memory. God knows how I got As for my SPM when almost everyday I leave something I need at home even though I specifically told myself to get it the day before. I'm serious, I am expecting myself to end up having dementia or Alzheimer's when I grow old because it feels like I'm already having it now! How the hell am I going to do any of those jobs I just mentioned if I have horrible memory? I have to memorize tons and tons of facts and read the thickest books. If you know job zones, medicine/dentistry is one of the careers where you require the most intensive preparation/studying. I know myself. I'm not very disciplined when it comes to studying. Procrastination is a feat of mine. Well I will have to banish this feat of mine if I were to do whatever I want to do. Easier said than done though.

I understand the consequences and many disadvantages that comes with studying medicine/dentistry. I will have to dedicate all my time and give my all. Being lazy and procrastinating can no longer be an option. I've been reading people's experiences and opinions online and trust me, they're not pretty. But why do I still feel like I want to do it? I don't want to regret it and one day feel so depressed and drop out of the course because I can't take it anymore

Contrary to your opinions regarding myself and my hobby of watching TV shows and specifically Grey's Anatomy, I am not influenced by medical shows. Heck, if GA is influencing me on anything, it's how beautiful my fictional aspirational couple, Cristina and Owen's love story is and how much they have gone through and how the showrunner is giving us fans the very opposite of what we want to see and how their forever angsty relationship is falling apart and.... and how my unhealthy obsession needs to be toned down haha. Yeah obsessing over my favourite fictional couple, THAT I'm good at. If they had a job for that, I'd totally excel.

What I KNOW, is if I had the chance and the money, I would love to study overseas. No, not in Indonesia or Singapore... but in the UK or the US. US is an unrealistic dream with what I want to study I know, but UK is still available, although chances of that are extremely slim anyways. I am infected by wanderlust: a strong desire to travel. I would love to visit the Eiffel tower or the Arc de Triomph, walk around the Colosseum in Rome, inhale the fresh air of the Scottish highlands, watch a play at the West End and swim in the seas of the Carribean. Le sigh. May God help me.
Maybe I should just dig my nose and drink stuff all day on the the couch like this guy huh:
He knows what he's doing.

Holidays #1 + Adobe After Effects

Hey thereee :D

I am on my holidays right now which is almost ending, but I'm not those kind of people who despise holidays because they're so boring and they want to go back to school. Uh-uh not me. No matter how bored I am at home, I will find something to do... even if it's sleeping or just lying on my bed, staring at my ceiling. Because I prefer holidays than school. And that's technically still something to do.

The holidays are ending and I am so bummed I have to be swamped with homework and studies again. And since this is the 2nd semester, the road is going to get bumpier, challenges are getting harder, and the highs are getting higher. So much to study in so little time. Not looking forward to it.

But anyways, I'll talk about my holidays in another blog post I'll whip out later. Or tomorrow. Depending on how procrastinating I feel.

What I primarily want to share with everyone in this post is a 10second video I made in Adobe After Effects! This 10seconds video took me at least 3 hours. Non-stop. No toilet or water breaks. Crazy. But of course, I'm a total AE noob.

And my laptop only has 4GB RAM :'( Probably one of my biggest mistakes ever. Because it is impossible to RAM preview videos with video clips and photos in it. Therefore I made one with text. Text based on teens. Yeah it's random. It's suppose to be:

He sounded a similar call to young women. “As I contemplate all that you face in the world today,” he said, “One word comes to my mind. It describes an attribute needed by all of us but one which you—at this time of your life and in this world—will need particularly. That attribute is courage . . . courage to refrain from judging others . . . courage to be chaste and virtuous; and . . . courage to stand firm for truth and righteousness”

Yeah, the video didn't turn out to be the whole quote, just one sentence... HAHA I didn't realize it would take me so long okay! In the beginning of the video-making, I was quite motivated in that LET'S DO THIS mood. And then 3 hours later, I go... I NEED TO STOP FOR A WHILE. Yup.

I watched this kinetic and rhythmic typography thing last year and I was so interested in making one. So I tried Adobe After Effects, but SPM was just around the corner so I stopped practicing. Now that I'm on break and I'd like to do something productive, I tried After Effects again :)

But I'm glad I got to explore the possibilities of Adobe After Effects. You can make a lot of cool stuff with that. And I probably will! :)

I was just playing around with it, so don't mind the same words and whatever choppiness you see. Also, before you watch this, don't put your audio levels too high lol.

And maybe I'll try kinetic typography next. :)